Again, I am right where you are, Chris. Two years ago during a wind storm, a tree fell on a young family in Livonia and killed the 2-year-old sleeping next to his mother and sibling who both survived. We found this out during a Wednesday praise night. I could not praise. Not even close. Seethed in silence. We thank God when the tree misses the house; what do we do when it hits and kills? I don’t want to blame God, but I do. Why did he allow my friend to die of cancer with 3 little kids and hundreds of people around the world praying for his healing? These are questions I have trouble getting over. I too “give it” to God, meaning yelling and and anger and silence. Yet I still engage and wait to see what he’ll say back….Still waiting. This time around I feel apathetic. So many deaths we hear about. I can’t process it all. Yet, I praise him for my blessings, knowing they may not be given tomorrow. Trying to let go of my human need to understand. Fighting in church, I get it. This is real.
Again, I am right where you are, Chris. Two years ago during a wind storm, a tree fell on a young family in Livonia and killed the 2-year-old sleeping next to his mother and sibling who both survived. We found this out during a Wednesday praise night. I could not praise. Not even close. Seethed in silence. We thank God when the tree misses the house; what do we do when it hits and kills? I don’t want to blame God, but I do. Why did he allow my friend to die of cancer with 3 little kids and hundreds of people around the world praying for his healing? These are questions I have trouble getting over. I too “give it” to God, meaning yelling and and anger and silence. Yet I still engage and wait to see what he’ll say back….Still waiting. This time around I feel apathetic. So many deaths we hear about. I can’t process it all. Yet, I praise him for my blessings, knowing they may not be given tomorrow. Trying to let go of my human need to understand. Fighting in church, I get it. This is real.